Brand New Pen

Boy...looking at the date of my last entry, it's been almost a year and a half already. 18 months - 2 babies could have been made and born in that period. I am almost at a lost here - it's like at one point of my life, my pen ran out of ink - and I went to look for a new pen or ink to fill - and now that the ink find its way into that pen of mine - I took a glance at the calendar and voila! It's 18  months later.

So what have I been up to? Looking for a new pen? Something that lasts longer? Indelible ink?

I would wish that I had been up to something fun, but it's been more frustration than fun. For the past 6 months or so, I had been busy with my new house - my 4th properties (5th if I count that flat I bought when I was just barely out of high school). With all these properties, you would have thought the renovation and moving in would be as easy as a breeze. You would have been wrong.

The thing about me is I always strive for perfection. I hate to screw up. So I planned till my hair grow white. Then when I turned my plan into execution, I was all fired up. But in a world like ours, there's always some people pouring water into your fire. Or rain - which is an act of nature. And plan all you want, there's always a need to improvise. And you become wiser when all this is over. Right?

The thing about us (as human beings) is we always hope that once something is over, we move to something new (with a break in within). We set a date and once we reach that date, we start a new phase of our life. But the truth is, thing never get over cleanly. We have shit we have to clean up - and sometimes this shit dragged itself forcibly into the new phase of our life. A crappy relationship for example. Where your ex always appeared out of nowhere to fight for your kids love and custody. And how to deal with that?

There's always crap like that. We deal with it - but don't expect it's fun. It's not.

That's what I have been saying. It's been more frustration than fun.

Ok now, let's not get carried away. Let me get used to my new pen first in coming days and hopefully my next entry would be something less philosophical. Haha.